Its Cruel sometimes..

I just cant forget the time when I met Jai, possibly my first friend in engg class. This person so decent, clean, simple without any loathed attitude. A gem of a person he was indeed! And I still remember the last phone call I had with him. This time, he being a Infosician vying for a onsite opportunnity while at the same trying to settle down, looking  to purchase a house. It doesn't matter how many years you know your dear friend, what matters is the relationship truly. Today, however even when I try to recall life, things will keep going! It's just as impossible for me to pause as stopping a fast paced water stream!

It makes me think once again as to what is really my goal. And really how much should I ever try to be within constraints of practicalities & procrastinate all I want to do. How am I really supposed to get off from so-called comfy position and set my foot to do something a little good for people around without being really selfish. Am I really lucky to have some time still left for myself to do something for mankind and people around? Is this a learning point really? How am I supposed to bring in all those juggernauts and fix up ever so complex puzzle? Lately, this incidence has torn my mental energies and I m yet another time forced to rethink and re-strategize my way forward. It says to me "Enough of this life, get off, do stuff, have fun, meet people, make things & importantly spread goodwill". Now, here comes the real question that is how to accomplish such a simple sounding yet a complex set of activities. Saying in my IT jargon form, I dont have an alogorithm or workflow.

Well. the more I think, more I introspect, it makes me feel creegy. Today, I stand such a face of realities, where activities happen and consequences are ingrained as cruel realities. I cannot realize that its possible! Life can be unpredictable, cruel, unstable sometimes. What we need is goodness and that alone will help you drive yourself way forward to your destination. Destination sometimes becomes vague for such unpredictability, leaving no formidable destination for yourself. Truly, one need to sit back and focus.
Today, i realize this and I will sure do this to-do. And to-dos are not only to be written down but actually to be done.

As said, "Live today as if it were your last".....So.....................

May Jai, my dearest friend rest in peace!